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In defense of the unlikeable protagonist
Epilogues + New Visions, Angel Martinez Kailah Figueroa Epilogues + New Visions, Angel Martinez Kailah Figueroa

In defense of the unlikeable protagonist

I never saw my negative characteristics as anything worth parading or celebrating. I knew that they were there, but I never drew attention to them in fear that making others aware of their existence would magnify them until they were the only visible parts about me. But seeing them fleshed out and personified on the big screen served as a much-needed reminder that I could be all these imperfect things and still have the right to occupy space in the world and redeem myself in the end.

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Letter to myself about uncertainty
Epilogues + New Visions, Liyah Garcia Kailah Figueroa Epilogues + New Visions, Liyah Garcia Kailah Figueroa

Letter to myself about uncertainty

Maybe by reading this letter, and listening to a past version of yourself, you’ll see that you’re a strong person. Because you’ve survived your version of hell and heaven. Listen to the positive parts of your brain. Listen closely and close your eyes. Breathe in once in a while. Life is still here even if you don’t feel it is.

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Bleached
Epilogues + New Visions, Eva Gelman Kailah Figueroa Epilogues + New Visions, Eva Gelman Kailah Figueroa

Bleached

Freshman year, on my way home from the hair salon, meeting eyes with an ex-classmate (read: ex-bully). He looks at me from across the street and shouts: “What the FUCK did you do with your hair?” My hair is blue. I tell him to fuck off and leave, feeling like the most badass person I’ve ever met and like the scum of the earth, all at the same time.

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The Subconscious Matrix: Falling Down the Rabbit Hole of YouTube Subliminals
Epilogues + New Visions, Sarah Diver Kailah Figueroa Epilogues + New Visions, Sarah Diver Kailah Figueroa

The Subconscious Matrix: Falling Down the Rabbit Hole of YouTube Subliminals

In theory, subliminal affirmations sound perfect, as a lot of the time, the reason people don’t find positive affirmations helpful is because the statements contradict a deeply-held negative belief… If we were able to plant this message directly into our subconscious and therefore bypass all of those doubts, wouldn’t it make things so much easier? We could change so much about ourselves, and it would be almost effortless.

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Separating Shame from Sex

Separating Shame from Sex

I’m at the age that my aunt was when she was reassuring me that I am not my “body count,” and I hope this article acts as a virtual form of reassurance to those who may not have an adult figure to talk to. While I’m still trying to undo the feeling of shame from harmful messages instilled in me, I understand that I’m autonomous for my body, and we all deserve respect regardless of how many partners we’ve had or how we present ourselves.

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Rethinking My Beauty Routine in the Time of Quarantine
Epilogues + New Visions, Lea Bolante Kailah Figueroa Epilogues + New Visions, Lea Bolante Kailah Figueroa

Rethinking My Beauty Routine in the Time of Quarantine

I can’t be discerning and picky with my beauty items anymore. Now, whining about running out of my favorite moisturizer feels like an insensitive and privilege-ridden thing to do. I learned from the changes I’ve made in my beauty routine that self-care comes in different forms, and the ways we practice it are influenced by our circumstances.

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Knowing When Enough is Enough: An Overachiever’s Guide to Self-Care
Epilogues + New Visions, Lorenza Mezzapelle Kailah Figueroa Epilogues + New Visions, Lorenza Mezzapelle Kailah Figueroa

Knowing When Enough is Enough: An Overachiever’s Guide to Self-Care

To this day, I struggle with the idea of taking a few hours away from my day to do something for mere pleasure. Doing anything even remotely enjoyable is ultimately accompanied by feelings of regret. “I could be studying” and “this won’t get me into grad school” are among the many intrusive thoughts I have to deal with when doing anything for, well, me. So how can overachievers overcome these feelings of remorse, take the time to be a little kinder to themselves, and prevent burnout?

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Strawberries and Cream
Epilogues + New Visions, Abigail J. Burns Kailah Figueroa Epilogues + New Visions, Abigail J. Burns Kailah Figueroa

Strawberries and Cream

“Held down the fort?” she asked, sagging into her chair and spraying cherry scent on her neck. / “Barely,” I said. Katie snorted. She had a really ugly way of laughing, and I kind of liked it. / “You’re funny, Jack.” She drummed her fingers against the windowsill, spared me the honor of protesting by barreling on: “You staying here long?” / “Just the summer.” / “Figured,” she said. “You know, it may not look it, but this town isn’t so bad.” / Could’ve fooled me.

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